Few Hidden Feelings of love

Preventing to express my feelings
stopping me to say,
Hiding her identity
she lives distantly and faraway.

She must know the truth that,
My heart seeks only for her
It does not expect to understand
But this is the truth, making things blur.

She knows really well
her gift of heartache is dear to me
who cares about the pain
it drags me towards her , that is what I see.

Checking of the power
how much it outlasts?
She took me through many tests
unknowingly in the past.